a premonition of what’s next.
deleted, substituted, submitted.
the steps to becoming known,
the steps are out of control.
subdued, managed, manipulated.
satisfaction isn’t imperfection.
the sabotage of knowledge,
the sabotage that damaged
more than half of happy faces.
quarrelled, angered, not pampered.
normal pacing, a day of waiting.
what i lose today, i can’t lose forever.
there are far places near in my mind.
to tame my sanity is never this easy.
2020